Monday, 18 December 2017

Living with a shy personality and social anxiety

Growing up I have always been a shy person. I was always the quiet girl in class- not looking at people's eyes when talking, not putting my hands up when I got a question or definitely know the answer the teacher just asked, and most importantly, not standing up and defending for myself when I needed to.

However, I thought it was completely normal because it really didn't cause anyone trouble. I saw myself as the quiet and 'uncool' or average girl in class. It was only until recent years that I realised how extremely shy and self-conscious am I of a person. Going to interviews scare the crap out of me. I would not get a good night's sleep, so naturally on the day I would be tired as hell. I would drink a coffee (or two) just so to mentally and physically prepare myself for it. Now you may think: okay but this is how most people feel too. Trust me, I fake it so well that you don't even see how much I'm sweating and how fast my heart is beating with a million thoughts/ second racing in my mind. Meeting new people and going to social events scares me. My hands would get all clammy and shaky and I would get so self-conscious of myself that I constantly think that people are judging me at this very moment. Sometimes people think that I'm hard to approach and very high-maintenance because I don't talk much, but that's simply because I'm afraid that anything I say would somehow annoy or offend you. I secretly want to talk to you so bad and befriend you, but it's just so hard.

However, this makes me extremely grateful for the friends I have made in my life and people who I consider my loved ones. You make me feel comfortable, wanted and most importantly, you turn my weaknesses into strengths. I still haven't 100% conquered my fears of meeting new people and going to interviews and social events, but it is something I am working on. This topic is a long one- perhaps I'll share more of my stories in future posts.







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Tuesday, 5 December 2017

Anxious uncertainty; unforeseeable future

Identity crises- it is real and legitimate, you all. I repeat, it is real. As long as I am aware I have been suffering from identity crisis for WELL over a year now and it absolutely sucks. Everyday, you wake up and there is at least one moment that you think to yourself: who am I? what am I supposed to be? It took me more than 8 months to come back to this blog and decide what I should talk about because I felt like the past few posts I just did just so I have some content on here; typing this blog post took me more than 10, 11 tries because I simply did not know what to talk about. It's a struggle. Not to mention the frequent anxiety and depression that comes with it- it hits you like a truck. It's absolutely crazy I know because some people simply think that you're just being sensitive and overdramatic and immature.

During the past 8 months of being gone, I've been doing some thinking. A LOT of thinking. But frankly, it didn't really get me anywhere since I still do not know what I should be doing in life; in my studies, post graduation or in the future. It just seems...so bleak? 8 months absolutely whizzed by and two years later I will be a Fashion Technology graduate. Darn.

Whilst being gone I've been trying some things I like (haven't reached the stage of love or with mad passion though) e.g. photography, gym and being healthy and all that, and just simply enjoying life. Here's a little throwback to September, when days were longer and my skin was tanner.

If you are currently suffering from or have suffered from identity crisis, I feel for you deeply. And I hope that one day, we both will get out from this. Oh, and if you came from Instagram- hello! I really appreciate it. And I hope you'll come back for my next blog post!






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Saturday, 22 April 2017

HONG KONG ROOFTOP ADVENTURES | STEPHANIE SO


A recollection of the many rooftop adventures I have had in Hong Kong so far/ Aug-Dec 2016.




















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Saturday, 15 April 2017

HELLO, HELLO BABY | STEPHANIE SO


Hello, hello baby, you called I can't hear a thing. I have got no service in the club you say, say?

Despite my never ending love for black clothing, I've also secretly got a weakness for baby blue and light, pastel colours. I thrifted this Levi's denim jacket from a local vintage store in Hong Kong called Midwest Vintage for about $200. May be a bit pricey to some thrifting professionals but I truly think it is a gem!




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Friday, 14 April 2017

WHITE LIGHT | STEPHANIE SO


You're different, I like it. You're from another planet, and I'd like you to take me there. You can fly your alien spaceship. You're different, don't hide it. That's what made me notice you. 

You are a white light, stepping out of the dark. You are a white light but you cover it up.



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Thursday, 13 April 2017

NOCTURNAL | STEPHANIE SO


A girl should always be two things: a little classy and a little sassy. For me a bodysuit, mesh top, high-waisted trousers does the trick. With Hong Kong's bipolar weather, layering is essential; it could be cold and windy this second however the next minute it gets warm and humid. Paired with a vintage corduroy jacket and faux fur clutch, this is a perfect nighttime outfit. Oh, and don't forget your red lipstick ladies! It's a game changer!






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Wednesday, 12 April 2017

SINCE 1961 | STEPHANIE SO


Old is always gold. During the cold, winter seasons I especially love to wrap up warm in a big, furry, oversized coat and wear a pair of classic, black boots.  Before the Summer waves hit Hong Kong, let's throw it back to the cooler weather and to wearing one of my favourite coats ever. This one is from Topshop and it's made from suede and faux fur.

All black outfits are always the best. Better when paired with a perfect lip colour! This one is MAC's Retro Rouge.

Oh! And I finally tried LAB MADE ice-cream. Scroll down! (Not sponsored, LOL).







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